Friendship problems, that always seems to be happening to me.
i don't want this 4.5 years of friendship w you to end like that.
yesterday, i really heard you saying that sentence.
maybe i'm deaf or what, maybe i heard it wrong, so be it.
fine, it's my fault again.

but what upsets me is not over that stupid 1 sentence,
it's about how you approach the situation.
Quarrels. That's what every friendship will have.
have you ever tried being the one to initiate to say sorry?
why must it be always me? i was the one who messaged you in the morning.
if you have replied me yes, instead of no, maybe we won't feel awkward in sch to talk anymore.
you are not just an ordinary friend. but you are my best friend.
you are the 1st friend that i will call when i'm bored and sad.
you are the friend that i will retain 1 year more in sch and entering the same cca as you.
That's how important you are in my life.
aren't best friends suppose to stand by each other during tough times blah blah?

now in sch, you have the 'support' and 'accompany' by our another close friend.
what about me? have you ever spare a thought about me?
how would u feel if you have to go home on your own?
how would u feel if during recess time u have to go w a different clique?
how would u feel if early in the morning you have to shed some tears before leaving home, emoing along your way to school, feeling that your morning is being fucked up and ruin?

I dun want this f/s to just stray away.
i dk what to say to you, since it's so awkward anyway.
i think of this damn matter for the whole day yest plus today.
can't you stand at the view point of me?

people make mistakes. i am not perfect.
How much effort do you want me to give to every friendship i have?
i have enough.
sorry, i can't be that happy-lucky friend and a friend who keeps on blabbering and laughing all the way anymore. even if after you read my blog and not wanting to take action(you know what i mean anw), i will understand.
But please dun ever say that i don't care and give up on this f/s.
cause you dunnoe how much i want this f/s to resume as back to how we were.
Best friends?